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firstlightWhy have I not finished Subrosa yet.
Well, I know what this weekend is dedicated to.
At least over the course of the last few days I've developed a more solid idea of where I'm going with D1 exchange, and have a bunch of scenes sitting in my head being all awesome at me. Now I just have to hope that they a) hang around long enough for me to give them the attention they deserve and b) prove to be translatable from mental image to text, which is a problem I never ever used to have but have been struggling with more and more over the last year. I think this is probably because I'm thinking much harder about it. How hard is too hard? Niou, don't answer that.
General rambling about fic-writing. I think I've been writing Better Fic this year than the year before, and that I wrote better fic that year than in my first year in fandom. One of the nice things fandom has done for me* is allow me to feel myself improving. I wrote a lot before I was in fandom, but without so much of the same sense of progress, probably because it just got written and then vanished and no-one ever saw any of it except my high school English teacher, who was just amazed that one of his students could sort of construct a sentence. It was that kind of school; you were doing well if you used the correct word four times in five, and even better if you knew how to spell it. Anyway, it's not so much that I think people have given me amazingly helpful feedback because (apart from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
readerofasaph when I was entirely new to fandom and no-one was talking to me) this is mostly not the case. But all the same; it's out there. It's a lot easier to look back at and talk about at people (which I'm often guilty of, with horrible self-indulgence -- usually those who don't run away fast enough, like crystalusagi, get most of it) and consider critically. Not least because I don't write it all in notebooks which then get lost in the depths of drawers never to be seen again...
Anyway. I can feel myself improving and see that I'm doing things better than I used to and like Lynn says, I AM still improving. But it's nice to see that I've come a fair way already since I wandered into a fandom I knew nothing at all about and started writing epic AU fic which I actually never intended to be epic in the first place. (You know, I cannot read that story. But I do like that it's there.)
* and honestly, there are quite a lot of things fandom has done for me that I'm NOT so happy about, like making me forget how to write original characters.
Oh my god, why am I trying to make sense. It's early(ish) and I have a cat balancing on the back of my chair wobbling threateningly at me and I don't have any tea and this is all just procrastination about my subrosa fic anyway when we get right down to it. And I think I need painkillers and a hot water bottle, unless my body is still messing me around. X_x
Well, I know what this weekend is dedicated to.
At least over the course of the last few days I've developed a more solid idea of where I'm going with D1 exchange, and have a bunch of scenes sitting in my head being all awesome at me. Now I just have to hope that they a) hang around long enough for me to give them the attention they deserve and b) prove to be translatable from mental image to text, which is a problem I never ever used to have but have been struggling with more and more over the last year. I think this is probably because I'm thinking much harder about it. How hard is too hard? Niou, don't answer that.
General rambling about fic-writing. I think I've been writing Better Fic this year than the year before, and that I wrote better fic that year than in my first year in fandom. One of the nice things fandom has done for me* is allow me to feel myself improving. I wrote a lot before I was in fandom, but without so much of the same sense of progress, probably because it just got written and then vanished and no-one ever saw any of it except my high school English teacher, who was just amazed that one of his students could sort of construct a sentence. It was that kind of school; you were doing well if you used the correct word four times in five, and even better if you knew how to spell it. Anyway, it's not so much that I think people have given me amazingly helpful feedback because (apart from
readerofasaph when I was entirely new to fandom and no-one was talking to me) this is mostly not the case. But all the same; it's out there. It's a lot easier to look back at and talk about at people (which I'm often guilty of, with horrible self-indulgence -- usually those who don't run away fast enough, like crystalusagi, get most of it) and consider critically. Not least because I don't write it all in notebooks which then get lost in the depths of drawers never to be seen again...Anyway. I can feel myself improving and see that I'm doing things better than I used to and like Lynn says, I AM still improving. But it's nice to see that I've come a fair way already since I wandered into a fandom I knew nothing at all about and started writing epic AU fic which I actually never intended to be epic in the first place. (You know, I cannot read that story. But I do like that it's there.)
* and honestly, there are quite a lot of things fandom has done for me that I'm NOT so happy about, like making me forget how to write original characters.
Oh my god, why am I trying to make sense. It's early(ish) and I have a cat balancing on the back of my chair wobbling threateningly at me and I don't have any tea and this is all just procrastination about my subrosa fic anyway when we get right down to it. And I think I need painkillers and a hot water bottle, unless my body is still messing me around. X_x
