[PoT] While it Lasts (Marui, Jackal)
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firstlightTitle: While it Lasts
Characters: Marui; Rikkai in general, especially Jackal. No real pairings, but maybe some hints.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: The characters aren't mine. Surprise. Shock. Horror.
Notes: Appears to have turned out to dwell in the same timeline as a Sanada/Yukimura fic I'm writing at present. Set some years after the series. In a shocking turn of events, contains very little D1 (though there is a bit of Niou). End of world may be near.
Written for a challenge by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dystopiarcadia, the exact terms of which I have unfortunately lost. But it was to be a fic about Marui, set after the series, containing reflection on fate vs. hard work in maintaining friendships. Or something. I apologise if I wrote entirely the wrong thing. It's basically me finally getting around to writing something we said we'd do ages ago -- namely, a fic about Marui which didn't just involve food. No small challenge!
I apologise for any typos: wrote this on a computer without proper word-processing software (??!), and spell-checked it on LJ, which keeps trying to give me American spellings for things. So I may have missed some bad spelling in there. Checked through repeatedly, edited a bit, but still rather raw.
Ended up less angsty than I expected; Marui does kind of repel angst after all.
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At fifteen years old, Marui hadn't let the world trouble him unduly. There were problems and setbacks: slipping grades when he spent too much time practicing tennis instead of doing homework, little arguments, little losses. Yukimura's illness had shaken everyone, but although it had looked bad for a while, he'd recovered. Marui hadn't dwelt on it -- not because he didn't care, but because it simply wasn't in his nature to do so. Sanada had worried enough for all of them, and Yukimura's eventual return had spurred the team on to make up for their loss in the regionals. They'd taken the nationals; it had all ended happily. It had felt like they would last forever, the group of them, all together. Despite everything, that had been a good year.
At sixteen years old, standing by the newly-dug grave of his grandmother and feeling more confusion and incomprehension than actual pain and loss, he'd considered that maybe he hadn't worried so much about Yukimura because he simply hadn't been able to imagine their brilliant captain not being all right. He'd looked on the whole thing as being temporary, something which would inevitably pass. He had assumed that nothing could really stop them. He certainly hadn't believed, deep down, that Yukimura could possibly die. He hadn't even known what it felt like to lose someone. It was strange to realise -- actually realise, not know in a theoretical sort of way -- that sometimes, it didn't all work out.
Now, he's eighteen. A little older, maybe a little wiser, though Niou would definitely laugh at that. He's calmed down considerably, though there is no indication that he'll lose his lively nature any time soon. The main difference, as far as he can tell, is that he thinks about things more. Today, leaving the grounds of Rikkai high school probably for the last time, some of the things he's thinking about aren't entirely comfortable.
The main thought is that, somehow, they've all grown up; and, in some cases, grown apart. He's just insecure enough to dislike the change, just dependent enough to worry about what will come next. Most of them, of course, will be going to the same university; but already in high school things have changed. Take, for example, Yukimura and Sanada. He would have said that their friendship was one of those 'forever' sort of things, once, but these days there's awkwardness between them. They barely speak, and Yukimura announced a while back that he intends to leave and try to start a career in tennis, in Europe.
Marui wonders if their captain (their former captain, he corrects himself) wasn't half-hoping Sanada would follow him, but there's no sign of such a thing happening. Maybe the problem there is that they just assumed things would stay the same, as well, and never said the things they needed to, until there was too much distance between them after all, or too many complications.
He hopes that never happens to him and Jackal; he's come to really value Jackal's quiet support, for all he jokes about it. He jokes about almost everything, after all; makes like it doesn't matter and everything is still as much of a game to him as it used to be. Maybe he does spend more time with Niou, going to clubs and generally misbehaving, but it's still Jackal he'd describe as his best friend.
Maybe he should let Jackal know that. It couldn't hurt, right? He often leaves things unsaid, and he's beginning to realise that he can't just let things take their course, if he wants to hold on to his friends.
He definitely wants to hold on to Jackal. The other boy is a dose of sanity, stability (something in short supply in their little group, at times) -- sensible without being boring, and able to provide a reality check when Marui is getting worked up about school (the only thing which visibly stresses him), or too wrapped up in a silly idea. He admires Jackal for being so adult, in a way which Marui wonders if he himself will ever really be. People have pointed out the irony of Jackal the only child being so mature, while Marui, the oldest of three, is still kind of bratty and playful. Even though they're really the same age, Jackal is a bit like an older brother to him, in the best possible way.
"Oi, Bunta," a voice calls, breaking through his train of thought. Niou. Only Niou or Kirihara would shout like that, and Kirihara wouldn't call him Bunta. He glances over his shoulder, and sees the trickster running towards him, the welcome figure of Jackal trailing along behind.
"Don't just sneak off like that," Niou says as he catches up, swatting Marui lightly across the shoulder before turning to see if Jackal is still with him. "We spent ages looking for you, you know."
"He's exaggerating," Jackal puts in, catching up too. "We looked around for a couple of minutes and then realised you must have left to go home." He treats Marui to a soft smile, and Marui grins back, blows a bubble with his gum. Niou rolls his eyes.
"Well, anyway," he shrugs, "what's got into you, Bunta? If I didn't know better I'd say you looked almost thoughtful."
Marui just shakes his head, and greets Jackal enthusiastically by way of a diversion.
They walk together for a while, with Jackal to Marui's right, Niou to his left. Niou and Marui throw slightly inane comments back and forth, and Jackal watches, making quiet observations when the conversation touches on something he understands. Marui likes Jackal's observations. They're not over-the-top like his own can get, but they're often quite funny, if you actually pay attention to them. Jackal has more of a sense of humour than people credit him with.
"Ah, I'm going that way," Niou says at last, gesturing down a side-street. "I said I'd meet Hiroshi, and he'll be pretty pissed if I fail to show up."
"Again," Marui points out, without accusation. "It's not like you only did it once."
"Three times. And two of them were honest mistakes."
Marui laughs, and decides it's better not to ask about the third, or to question the probability of Niou making that kind of mistake. Niou and Yagyuu seem to be friends almost despite themselves sometimes. Other times, they make perfect partners in crime.
"Well, you're going to show up this time. Get lost."
Niou smirks a little and walks off, waving without looking back.
"See you around," he shouts, and then he's gone.
Marui glances up at Jackal, remembering his earlier thoughts.
"Hey," he asks, feeling almost cautious, "you want to come back to mine for the evening?"
"Ok," Jackal says casually, but he smiles like he's just been given a really thoughtful present. Marui savours the happy feeling that smile gives him for a moment, sinking into uncharacteristic silence.
"Something wrong?" Jackal asks, after a while. Marui shakes his head.
"Nah, just thinking."
Jackal doesn't laugh, because he's Jackal, not Niou, and that's why Marui thinks of him as his best friend.
"Ah. About change?"
"About... yeah, I guess so. About us. The team."
Jackal nods, "Yukimura's decision shouldn't have been so surprising, but I think it caught us all a little off guard. It makes you wonder who else might vanish."
"You won't, will you...?"
"No. Not yet."
"Yet?" Marui asks, beginning to feel just a little sad. Jackal seems to notice and puts one arm around his shoulders, pulling him closer briefly. (And the issue of hugging guys is still a bit strange, because they're teenagers and not quite comfortable with everything yet, but it's Jackal, so it's OK.)
"Well. Nothing lasts forever, right? But I'm not leaving any time soon."
"Mm... all right," Marui considers for a moment. "Thanks for being such a good friend."
"Ah, it's nothing," Jackal mutters, looking a little embarrassed but pleased.
Marui gives a real smile, happy and full of energy, and finds he's feeling better than he has in days. He'll do whatever it takes to keep on being Jackal's friend, and it doesn't really matter what comes next. Jackal isn't going anywhere. Not yet. Nothing lasts forever, and it won't all magically be all right in the end, but with a little work it can be good while it lasts.
Characters: Marui; Rikkai in general, especially Jackal. No real pairings, but maybe some hints.
Rating: G
Disclaimer: The characters aren't mine. Surprise. Shock. Horror.
Notes: Appears to have turned out to dwell in the same timeline as a Sanada/Yukimura fic I'm writing at present. Set some years after the series. In a shocking turn of events, contains very little D1 (though there is a bit of Niou). End of world may be near.
Written for a challenge by
dystopiarcadia, the exact terms of which I have unfortunately lost. But it was to be a fic about Marui, set after the series, containing reflection on fate vs. hard work in maintaining friendships. Or something. I apologise if I wrote entirely the wrong thing. It's basically me finally getting around to writing something we said we'd do ages ago -- namely, a fic about Marui which didn't just involve food. No small challenge!I apologise for any typos: wrote this on a computer without proper word-processing software (??!), and spell-checked it on LJ, which keeps trying to give me American spellings for things. So I may have missed some bad spelling in there. Checked through repeatedly, edited a bit, but still rather raw.
Ended up less angsty than I expected; Marui does kind of repel angst after all.
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At fifteen years old, Marui hadn't let the world trouble him unduly. There were problems and setbacks: slipping grades when he spent too much time practicing tennis instead of doing homework, little arguments, little losses. Yukimura's illness had shaken everyone, but although it had looked bad for a while, he'd recovered. Marui hadn't dwelt on it -- not because he didn't care, but because it simply wasn't in his nature to do so. Sanada had worried enough for all of them, and Yukimura's eventual return had spurred the team on to make up for their loss in the regionals. They'd taken the nationals; it had all ended happily. It had felt like they would last forever, the group of them, all together. Despite everything, that had been a good year.
At sixteen years old, standing by the newly-dug grave of his grandmother and feeling more confusion and incomprehension than actual pain and loss, he'd considered that maybe he hadn't worried so much about Yukimura because he simply hadn't been able to imagine their brilliant captain not being all right. He'd looked on the whole thing as being temporary, something which would inevitably pass. He had assumed that nothing could really stop them. He certainly hadn't believed, deep down, that Yukimura could possibly die. He hadn't even known what it felt like to lose someone. It was strange to realise -- actually realise, not know in a theoretical sort of way -- that sometimes, it didn't all work out.
Now, he's eighteen. A little older, maybe a little wiser, though Niou would definitely laugh at that. He's calmed down considerably, though there is no indication that he'll lose his lively nature any time soon. The main difference, as far as he can tell, is that he thinks about things more. Today, leaving the grounds of Rikkai high school probably for the last time, some of the things he's thinking about aren't entirely comfortable.
The main thought is that, somehow, they've all grown up; and, in some cases, grown apart. He's just insecure enough to dislike the change, just dependent enough to worry about what will come next. Most of them, of course, will be going to the same university; but already in high school things have changed. Take, for example, Yukimura and Sanada. He would have said that their friendship was one of those 'forever' sort of things, once, but these days there's awkwardness between them. They barely speak, and Yukimura announced a while back that he intends to leave and try to start a career in tennis, in Europe.
Marui wonders if their captain (their former captain, he corrects himself) wasn't half-hoping Sanada would follow him, but there's no sign of such a thing happening. Maybe the problem there is that they just assumed things would stay the same, as well, and never said the things they needed to, until there was too much distance between them after all, or too many complications.
He hopes that never happens to him and Jackal; he's come to really value Jackal's quiet support, for all he jokes about it. He jokes about almost everything, after all; makes like it doesn't matter and everything is still as much of a game to him as it used to be. Maybe he does spend more time with Niou, going to clubs and generally misbehaving, but it's still Jackal he'd describe as his best friend.
Maybe he should let Jackal know that. It couldn't hurt, right? He often leaves things unsaid, and he's beginning to realise that he can't just let things take their course, if he wants to hold on to his friends.
He definitely wants to hold on to Jackal. The other boy is a dose of sanity, stability (something in short supply in their little group, at times) -- sensible without being boring, and able to provide a reality check when Marui is getting worked up about school (the only thing which visibly stresses him), or too wrapped up in a silly idea. He admires Jackal for being so adult, in a way which Marui wonders if he himself will ever really be. People have pointed out the irony of Jackal the only child being so mature, while Marui, the oldest of three, is still kind of bratty and playful. Even though they're really the same age, Jackal is a bit like an older brother to him, in the best possible way.
"Oi, Bunta," a voice calls, breaking through his train of thought. Niou. Only Niou or Kirihara would shout like that, and Kirihara wouldn't call him Bunta. He glances over his shoulder, and sees the trickster running towards him, the welcome figure of Jackal trailing along behind.
"Don't just sneak off like that," Niou says as he catches up, swatting Marui lightly across the shoulder before turning to see if Jackal is still with him. "We spent ages looking for you, you know."
"He's exaggerating," Jackal puts in, catching up too. "We looked around for a couple of minutes and then realised you must have left to go home." He treats Marui to a soft smile, and Marui grins back, blows a bubble with his gum. Niou rolls his eyes.
"Well, anyway," he shrugs, "what's got into you, Bunta? If I didn't know better I'd say you looked almost thoughtful."
Marui just shakes his head, and greets Jackal enthusiastically by way of a diversion.
They walk together for a while, with Jackal to Marui's right, Niou to his left. Niou and Marui throw slightly inane comments back and forth, and Jackal watches, making quiet observations when the conversation touches on something he understands. Marui likes Jackal's observations. They're not over-the-top like his own can get, but they're often quite funny, if you actually pay attention to them. Jackal has more of a sense of humour than people credit him with.
"Ah, I'm going that way," Niou says at last, gesturing down a side-street. "I said I'd meet Hiroshi, and he'll be pretty pissed if I fail to show up."
"Again," Marui points out, without accusation. "It's not like you only did it once."
"Three times. And two of them were honest mistakes."
Marui laughs, and decides it's better not to ask about the third, or to question the probability of Niou making that kind of mistake. Niou and Yagyuu seem to be friends almost despite themselves sometimes. Other times, they make perfect partners in crime.
"Well, you're going to show up this time. Get lost."
Niou smirks a little and walks off, waving without looking back.
"See you around," he shouts, and then he's gone.
Marui glances up at Jackal, remembering his earlier thoughts.
"Hey," he asks, feeling almost cautious, "you want to come back to mine for the evening?"
"Ok," Jackal says casually, but he smiles like he's just been given a really thoughtful present. Marui savours the happy feeling that smile gives him for a moment, sinking into uncharacteristic silence.
"Something wrong?" Jackal asks, after a while. Marui shakes his head.
"Nah, just thinking."
Jackal doesn't laugh, because he's Jackal, not Niou, and that's why Marui thinks of him as his best friend.
"Ah. About change?"
"About... yeah, I guess so. About us. The team."
Jackal nods, "Yukimura's decision shouldn't have been so surprising, but I think it caught us all a little off guard. It makes you wonder who else might vanish."
"You won't, will you...?"
"No. Not yet."
"Yet?" Marui asks, beginning to feel just a little sad. Jackal seems to notice and puts one arm around his shoulders, pulling him closer briefly. (And the issue of hugging guys is still a bit strange, because they're teenagers and not quite comfortable with everything yet, but it's Jackal, so it's OK.)
"Well. Nothing lasts forever, right? But I'm not leaving any time soon."
"Mm... all right," Marui considers for a moment. "Thanks for being such a good friend."
"Ah, it's nothing," Jackal mutters, looking a little embarrassed but pleased.
Marui gives a real smile, happy and full of energy, and finds he's feeling better than he has in days. He'll do whatever it takes to keep on being Jackal's friend, and it doesn't really matter what comes next. Jackal isn't going anywhere. Not yet. Nothing lasts forever, and it won't all magically be all right in the end, but with a little work it can be good while it lasts.
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Date: 2006-01-03 10:59 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2006-01-04 02:39 am (UTC)It's been ages since I've read such wonderful JaBun fic and Niou was fantastic too. You sketched great characterizations out of all of them and I hope you write more? :) ♥
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Date: 2006-01-04 02:51 am (UTC)*due to one-track mind, desperately wants to know what happened to Yukimura*
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Date: 2006-01-04 07:39 am (UTC)What happened to Yukimura? That's the next fic. Sort of.
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Date: 2006-01-04 10:17 am (UTC)♥
Yay SanaYuki next! :Dno subject
Date: 2006-01-05 10:25 am (UTC)I can only hope my attempt at SanaYuki will be deemed worthy...
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Date: 2006-01-04 11:08 am (UTC)I loved the Marui/Jackal interaction, and the whole awkwardness of growing up and realizing you can't take everything for granted.. Rock on, my one and only OTP! Mwhahahahaa
Also, went to bed at 3 this morning because Niou insisted on being naughty (http://www.livejournal.com/community/tenipuri_orch/7271.html?#cutid1). And fluffy, for some reason. XD
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Date: 2006-01-05 10:22 am (UTC)Glad you liked it. Do feel free to continue generating random plot-bunnies, I really don't mind. ;)
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Date: 2006-01-05 10:57 am (UTC)Do you like mine right now? Cos I can try to aim for that sort of gradient, like.. blue to pinkish/purple, or the contrary.
Also, there really isn't much dye left, considering the amount of hair on your head, love.. So do you think you could go to Camden at some point? I'm afraid I'm doing double shifts till Saturday (me day off!)
That Thing...? *bops herself on the head* Damn you Alzheimer, damn you! Can I have a hint?
And yeah, I do have all the Bleach eps.. I think. Err, the first 5 eps have mysteriously disappeared. Will have to look into that (how far has he seen?)
*catches breath* Holy guacamole! That's one long comment.
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Date: 2006-01-05 11:03 am (UTC)And yes. I can go to Camden, no probelm. I also have some pink dye left at my place.
I don't know what he's seen, really. first episode, definitely, maybe the second and third?
And your current hair is like... teh awesome. an' stuff.
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Date: 2006-01-04 08:26 pm (UTC)I think this is the first time reading a JaBun fic. I think they are really sweet. The way Jackal gets slightly embarrassed when Marui compliments him. The way Marui really appreciates having him as a friend. His realization of life, and how everything doesn't necessarily work out the way you want it to.
Will be waiting for more fics from you. =]
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Date: 2006-01-05 08:04 pm (UTC)You know, I don't think I've actually even seen any D2 stuff, except as a passing reference in fics about other pairings... it must be out there, I just haven't really encountered it. I like them, but hadn't thought about it from a fic point of view until
...I have to go see if I can find D2 fic now. *grin*
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Date: 2006-01-09 03:03 am (UTC)have I? O.oSomething about it makes me really touched, perhaps because their friendship seems so honest and true and not bordering on physical desires like some hormonal boys, yet certainly fluffy...and of course, I *squeeeed* at the D1 cameo XD. *puts in memories*no subject
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Date: 2006-01-19 01:01 pm (UTC)But squeeing is always good, right??
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Date: 2006-05-14 10:06 am (UTC)*fangirls Neil Gaiman like crazy*
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Date: 2006-09-08 03:35 pm (UTC)Anyway. Freaking wonderful. Your definition of Jackal in Bunta's eyes was truly fantastic. :DD
I'm going to have a lot of fun with your journal when I get home. >D
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